A PERSONAL UPDATE
3:00p | 9.17.25
As you can tell, I have reorganized my journal section of my site. I wanted to make subsections of my journals from now on. This section will be meant for longer more rambly discussions I want to have. My microblog section will be shorter and more for quick rants and whining. I also created a space for my vent art and doodles. I want my site to be as organized as possible for myself. My thoughts are always scrambled, so organizing them properly here gives me a sense of control and comfort.
My life lately has not been going well. My depression put me into a spiral starting from July up until now. I do believe I am better than I was before, but I still find myself struggling to keep my head above water. I have felt like my life is out of my own control lately. I attribute a lot of that lack of control to the current state of the world as well as the corruption at my job which makes it hard to come into work everyday without feeling miserable. I am praying I get the promotion I deserve soon so I will no longer have to stress about remedial things at my job. As for the current political climate where I am at...I am at a loss. So much happening and it feels hopeless. I don't want to feel hopeless. I've gotten with my communities and it seems we all are feeling similar sentiments as we continue to fight for our own freedoms.
I have been trying to be more introspective lately. These last few months I have become a bit of a hermit; avoiding my friends and family as much as possible. I don't want them to see me in the current mental state that I am in. Lately, I have felt a little better though and I have made a few plans to see old friends whom I haven't seen in a very long time. In fact, one called me the other day seeking advice and wanted to make plans to see each other again. They made a few comments to me that made me want to cry. It was a reassuring feeling knowing I can make someone feel the way they do. It gave me hope and brightened my day.
In all, I just want to feel better. I want my country to be better. I am tired of seeing evil and hateful mindsets take over so many people around me. I hope things will be better in a few months. The holidays are coming up, and those always cheer me up. I should be in a better spot mentally in a few months, if I keep working on it.
3:00p | 9.17.25
As you can tell, I have reorganized my journal section of my site. I wanted to make subsections of my journals from now on. This section will be meant for longer more rambly discussions I want to have. My microblog section will be shorter and more for quick rants and whining. I also created a space for my vent art and doodles. I want my site to be as organized as possible for myself. My thoughts are always scrambled, so organizing them properly here gives me a sense of control and comfort.
My life lately has not been going well. My depression put me into a spiral starting from July up until now. I do believe I am better than I was before, but I still find myself struggling to keep my head above water. I have felt like my life is out of my own control lately. I attribute a lot of that lack of control to the current state of the world as well as the corruption at my job which makes it hard to come into work everyday without feeling miserable. I am praying I get the promotion I deserve soon so I will no longer have to stress about remedial things at my job. As for the current political climate where I am at...I am at a loss. So much happening and it feels hopeless. I don't want to feel hopeless. I've gotten with my communities and it seems we all are feeling similar sentiments as we continue to fight for our own freedoms.
I have been trying to be more introspective lately. These last few months I have become a bit of a hermit; avoiding my friends and family as much as possible. I don't want them to see me in the current mental state that I am in. Lately, I have felt a little better though and I have made a few plans to see old friends whom I haven't seen in a very long time. In fact, one called me the other day seeking advice and wanted to make plans to see each other again. They made a few comments to me that made me want to cry. It was a reassuring feeling knowing I can make someone feel the way they do. It gave me hope and brightened my day.
In all, I just want to feel better. I want my country to be better. I am tired of seeing evil and hateful mindsets take over so many people around me. I hope things will be better in a few months. The holidays are coming up, and those always cheer me up. I should be in a better spot mentally in a few months, if I keep working on it.
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